I spent this evening examining
Sol Pais's journal on her website.
The journal consists of 61 pages curated by Sol to be discovered after her suicide attempt [keep in mind she might have been assassinated first]. The reference to potentially have been killed by someone other than her own hand will be dealt with in a separate blog entry.
There is not a single reference to Columbine in any of it. NOT A ONE.
There is not a single reference to killing anyone other than herself anywhere in the journal.
There is not a single drawing of anyone associated with Columbine or any other such event anywhere in the journal.
There is not even a temporal overlay to suggest she had any awareness of Columbine at all. Columbine happened before she was born. If she had been exposed to something that fascinated her, not a single link on her quite sophisticated website even hints an interest. Any fair reading of her journal is compelling eveidence that she would not have been shy about it.
The authorities are demonizing and slandering this young woman's reputation.
She was never a threat to anyone. She was gifted and brilliantly suicidal. She was not mentally ill in any criminal sense of the terminology.
She was a tortured soul who found solace in Death Metal music and lyrics. Its often difficult to disambiguate her words against the fabric of lyrics from songs that express her feelings. The journal, taken as a whole, is an American Post-Modern mantra that gives the Tibetan Book of the Dead a run for its money.
Sol Pais, much like a terminal patient with something to leave behind, speaks privately what she cannot express in her day to day life. The doctored photograph of her face covered is a classic metaphor for those who might bellow, "I have no mouth and I must scream!"
Sol Pais could not reconcile her existence. Its a terrible self-knowledge she agonizes with on page after page. She, like everyone who commits suicide, welcomes an end. Its not something most of us can understand or accept but it is real.
The only indication she gives of why she feels an outsider is expressed on page 29, dated 6/29/18. She feels an outsider in an [oppressively] liberal high school. Her rant could well be a meme for anyone who is intelligent and forced to witness the masses at work.
The agony of Sol Pais as a conservative student in a liberal school should serve as an important milestone for all of us. The current political climate is adversely affecting generations of youth who may be as ready to check out of this world as engage it.
We can't "woke" the dead.
Her suicide was planned and she would do it in the woods of Colorado. She drew both the shotgun she would buy and a landscape that was her destination accurately looking like the woods of Colorado. This illustration is on page 24 no date but sandwiched between 6/18/18 and 6/21/18.
The shotgun shows up on page 35 dated July 14, 2018. I need to triangulate this to the correspondence about acquiring guns in Colorado by someone also using DissolvedGirl as an avatar. Dissolved Girl is a sub-genre rock song that could be used by many fans of the music.
The journal pages are sequential and occasionally dated. The illustrations circulated by authorities appear before page 5, dated May 27, 2018.
The illustration being sold as a Columbine shooter is in fact a man holding a large book. We know that because Sol practiced drawing the book just to the left of the character who could be a priest, rabbi, speaker, or fantasy movie figure (see illustration). Of course if what you are trying to sell is the Columbine myth, books are dangerous weapons.
It is on page 11, sandwiched between May 27, 2018 and June 17, 2018.
This is a second, updated, draft, I'm pressed for time but I'll flesh this out even more.
My warning falling on deaf ears and now obsolete but preserved for reference...
April 22, 2018 - New suspicious activity and assertions by the Cult of Columbine authorities is that Sol died wearing a guerrilla camouflage outfit. This woman was committing suicide not honing her skills as a sniper using a shotgun. There is a nasty cover-up being perpetrated here.